turning turtle

it is my rotten luckyou departed so long agoyet ignite my soul ignition turns turtleyou intuitively seek itI depart hurriedly

clouds roll over

sky churns like butterturbulent clouds roll overyou watch for night rain rains beat on unwashed windowsdirt gets washed awayyou are again as spotless as ever goodbye, turbulent thoughts-let the clouds roll away thoseand may the bigger picture enclosed within yougive way to rhapsody of senses

flinching fiercely

when squall hits the wallsrust dust gets washed awaycawing of the crow reverberatesfierce rains followI watch it all from my windowplaying with a tendril of my hairmy eyes feel dizzymy plans for emporium visittoo gets washed away I sprinkle pepper on my toast,flinch at its raw tastethat gets me back on earthI know my saffron [...]

non-negotiable

why I negotiateyour so very random emotionsbut let myself ebb?

ode to imsomnia

each small wrinkle on the bedsheetbites into my skinmy fingers imprint on my faceI see flickering light in the darkbehind my tightly shut eyesan itch starts somewherespreads all overI try to scratch it awaythe vicarious dreams have turned to nightmareseach subsequent one more demonic than the formerI rock myself but to no availon the first [...]

waves of oceans in my glass

water from the glass seems to swirllooking up from my workI find it strangewaves fall over from the edgeI try to identify the sourceoceans have entered into my homewhy did they deviateand come into my homeconfined themselves into my glassI saturate my brain by pouring it on my head my coughing fit makes me forget [...]

eerily blue

Photo: Gathering by AlicePopkorn I erased the orange lightpainted it eerily blueoutlines of the birdsflew into mewheels stopped in wastelandyet I found a treebirds scattered into nowherebut returned and gathered near mein such a place of quietudethey too fell silentwe watched the fading lightand drowsily fell asleep when sands came from all sidesall of us [...]

stewed poetry

a single word rests in the shadeanother follows it, standing at a distanceafter a while both come closerone by one words come out themI catch each oneplace on a paperjuggling around I get a poemnot something originalyet not a copyit is something like a magician conjuresout of nowhere it seems to everyoneyet it had been [...]

now close, now open

my magenta bed covermocks me. my turquoise night wear clashes with that.I fumble on the mattressand let mists of sleepblock me outnightly shadowscast furtive glanceson the mirror when morning sounds wake me upthe sun looks down on mefern on my window too mocks memagenta turns to maroon goldI stare at it unseeingly.misty tears tricklefast and [...]

my arms around myself won’t let me down

I hug myselfshutting everything out-the pain is massivetearing into my guts-my arms around myselfhold me tightso as to I don’t fall apart.I squeeze my eyes tight,tearless I stay why did I ever think I could hold on to something which was never mine in the first place? that ache will be there a long time [...]